Happy 5th Birthday Stella!

Stella turns 5
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My baby is 5 today!

I was cuddling with Stella last night in between birthday parties and I held her and told her the story of the day she was born with tears in my eyes. You know those moments in your life that you can recall so clearly? The details are firmly etched in my heart, I can be transported right back to that day.

The day she was born, the air had a charge in it and it was unusually warm. I remember in between contractions looking out the window at the leaves floating down from the trees and the sun peaking through rain clouds. Looking back, my labor with her was the perfect foreshadowing of what was to come – intense and fast; emotional. But there was a peace in the room as I delivered her too. All the anticipation for her made the moment so much sweeter. I am now surprisingly grateful for the struggle of infertility – the hard reality of conversations with specialists, the miscarriages and the lows I felt during all the unknown. Because when were given the gift of Stella, I held on to her much tighter. I knew the plan for our family was unfolding just as it was supposed to. {read more}

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Dear Moms of Only Children

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This topic has been on my heart lately. I have several mom friends that have one child and they so often throw me the line, “it’s easier for me, I only have one,” or “you’ve already got your hands full and I just have the one child.” Stop apologizing moms of only children, you’ve got it tough too.

I have three kids now, but for the first four years of motherhood, I had one. Many of my friends around me were having their second child. I watched them through the transition of having multiple children, and in many ways, I struggled to relate. My world as a stay at home mom wasn’t changing, but theirs was going thru a complete overhaul. I felt a little lost. {read more}

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When Being a Stay At Home Mom Sucks

Got your attention? The alternate title was “When You Miss Pooping Without an Audience”.

Listen mamas, I’m not going to write a list of complaints about being a stay at home mom. But I am going to be real.

This full-time mom thing is no joke. I like the term full-time mom because stay at home mom implies to me that I am sitting home reading a book while my kids play. Ha! Um yeah.

I have an education, I had a career, and now the majority of my days are consumed with home keeping and raising three kiddos. One day I was working, and it seemed like an instant later I was driving a minivan around filled with three little whiners. It was an intentional choice to stay home with my kids but can I just tell you, that it’s just not that fulfilling much of the time? I know, *gasp*! {read more}

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Finding your perspective

Yesterday was Tuesday, and you know how I feel about Tuesdays.

Today has been rough around the edges. We are creeping toward the end of summer and I think we are all a little sick of each other. The background noise of screeching and crying and asking me for things has left my brain fuzzy and weary. But I wanted the pink cup. I’m hungry. Stop hitting me. My turn. Can we watch a show? I don’t want this for dinner. I don’t have any socks that fit. I need new socks right this minute. {read more}

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Finding your Grace {in Motherhood}

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Motherhood. Nothing like you expected. Better and harder than you could have dreamed, all at once.

I hear from so many women who are mothers who feel alone and feel like failures. They state that their house is constantly a disaster, they are thin on patience, and they want to run away. They are dealing with toddlers and teenagers, and are trying to find energy to maintain their marriages. Of course there are good days, moments that stand still with joy, and they wouldn’t trade it for anything. But they are beating themselves up because they feel like they are reaching for an unattainable goal. They often feel like they are drowning with a never-ending to-do list. They are tired of being needed. {read more}

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